Confusion - the stepping stone to clarity (I hope..)

Everything I learn seems confusing. I don't understand what they mean, how they come about. I feel like the sun's covered totally by dark clouds. Only little rays of light shines through. Clarity's blocked by confusion. It's tough. The exam's in two weeks. Chemistry, Accounting, History... They're the ones that I can't give up on, I want to try till I get it. Chemistry is by far the worst. Don't understand anything and can only stare and stare at my book while others are rushing about with their answers. Everything seems to be in standstill mode at times. Barely get to be on the computer, play my piano and practically sleep. Was really glad I got the oral test out of my way today, I knew I'd regret it the whole weekend if I hadn't volunteered. Going to take tonight off homework and just relax and play games. No study stuff gonna bother me, at least not tonight...

Post CNY

Chinese New Year's practically over. It's noisy every night, with firecrackers and fireworks 'bang'ing throughout the night.. Lost loads of sleep for the past week, and I'm now sick. Cough, cold, fever.. I rarely get sick and when I do I always get it bad.. = = I dread going to school now, facing classmates that seem like geniuses is very annoying. My buddy said if you don't have tuition help you can't possibly get good results... Nah, she's so annoying.. I'd rather have free time than have my time clogged up with all sorts of tuition nonsense.. No matter how lost and tired I get without tuition, I don't care.. Nothing much to say, wonder whether I'll recover soon........