Change... Again...

I want to start all over again, I want to change to be a better person but is that really possible for me? On one hand I have to grow up to eighteen when I'm not, and act mature, for my age I just want to be myself, I don't want to be someone I'm not, I just want to be me... I may be boring, irritating or just plain childish, but it's still me.. If I have to change, I still hope that I'll change for the better, not worse, but better. I want to be more cheerful and sociable, have a good set of values, be better to all my friends, my family, and I want to be successful not only in my studies but in being a good person. I don't want to care about what other people say or think about me, I'm just me, if I did something wrong or hurt you, just tell me and I'll try correct it, I won't know until you do.

In the new year to come, things may be tougher than usual but I still want to thrive, be with my friends and family, have a meaningful year... I hope I'll still have people to talk to, but the people that I like and trust sometimes just disappoint me.. The clock's ticking, there's not much time left to be with everyone you cherish, sooner or later they won't be by your side anymore..... Anyway, I'm going to stick to being the one who worries a lot, haha.... Be happy!! : )

Another Trip

Yes, another trip to Singapore, it may sound boring but I won't be able to visit Singapore for the next two months... I only spent two days there but it was eventful. Went to Sushi Tei again this trip, the food was very yummy and I loved it sooo much.. My favourite was the Golden Roll, a king prawn wrapped in sushi rice and seaweed topped off with a slice of sweet mango and flying fish roe with mayonaise drizzled on top, wow, really good.. I'm lucky that I'm a big eater ^^..

Went to Orchard Road and the Christmas decorations were up in conjunction with the APEC meeting there. The theme this year is 'A Glitzy Christmas'. I went to Borders the last time I visited Singapore but this time, Kinokuniya in Takashimaya. My cousin bought me huge cookies, potato cakes and octopus balls in Takashimaya. Christmas is almost everywhere there, I'm going to miss the full atmosphere this year... haiz... Tried hard to get photos, couldn't keep a steady hand, hehe...

Change

Had our taichi club meeting yesterday, the president showed us our club badges and all of us were 'terrified', they were so round and huge!! And we're supposed to wear it everyday starting from next year.. I was chosen to perform taichi on stage with 3 others next January, but I'm not confident at all.. After getting a lecture for being late for dinner, I became so weird and childish, oh, I can't believe what I did yesterday...... Ar...... I think I 'tortured' some people on MSN... haha...

Went to Tesco today and met Pn. Kwan Swee Kee there. I wanted to avoid her at first but decided not to.. After that, we went to Bata. I bought a pair of sport shoes, a combination of black and sharp pink, same as my school bag, (what a coincidence -_-")... I can't believe I bought that, and changed the boring black shoe laces with some interesting white ones.. And I even bought really short socks, I wonder whether my friends would believe that.. Wow, and I'm also starting to read comics...

I think my taste in things has changed a lot, mostly influenced by my friends... haha... But it's more interesting and fun that way.. I'm happy....

Finally it's all over..

It's all finished, thoroughly.. The results are all out and we know where we finally stand in class. I admit it was a little surprising and I was prepared to be out of the top 10 at first so it was not too disappointing, anyway I already beat the people that I wanted to so I'm quite satisfied. Gonna work harder next year, PMR.... One thing that breaks my heart is to see my good friends leave me and go to another class next year, it's a bit weird to put it this way though.. But I'll still be with some of my friends and I'll still build friendships next year... I hope it'll be easier..

Finally my mother bought a phone for me, so it's not so painful to be out of the top 5, I'm already happy just for that. It's getting more and more boring day by day, but I bet that it'll be worse once the school holidays start. I'm sooooo tired today, I had enough running around during basketball, blocking the opponents and all, but I was happy that I got to play basketball, anyway I think this is the last PJ class for the year, so it was 'memorable'..

闲。。

今天真的好闷，我发觉到我好像不大能融入大家的话题，注意力一旦离开话题五秒就根本追不上的感觉， 好像被踢出去酱。。今天参了苏美玲她们那一组玩‘杀手’， 跟昨天比起来很闷， 跟黄润彬、靖妮他们玩是比较好玩啦， 真可惜他们不想和那些女生玩， 应该是不熟的关系吧。。3 个回合里面我三个角色都当过， 就是杀手、平民还有警察。我不知道我为什么这么想玩，好像是因为去年才懂有这样的游戏。我很想和朋友一起玩， 但是不懂做么一看到他们玩就只想在一边看。。

我拿到校刊， 第一页就翻开我班的照片， 唉，算了吧。。 之后就看学会的照片，bla bla bla 一大堆。 我尽量在学校看完我想看的东西， 因为我的怪毛病就是我不喜欢看校刊第二次。一旦校刊到了我家， 我就会放在一边几乎再也不碰， 好像有怪癖耶。。 哈哈。。。 想不到我的英文作文竟然在校刊还有那个什么Yu Hua Bugle 里面登出来， 不懂做么会感到害怕又不安。。。

明天才能拿回木工， 不知道我装上去的灯泡坏了没有。。 所有成绩都出炉了， 成绩是差过年中考试但是我应该要满足，吕老师说的什么知足常乐， 很难做到啰。。放学一看到那些‘安蒂’我就会加快脚步不想停留在她们那里，想快点溜， 她们每到公布成绩的时候都酱一直说我很好一大堆， 而且还‘贬低’他们自己的孩子， 弄到我很气、不好意思、有压力又想趁早离开。。

我真的希望接下来的几天我能开心一点，真得很想快乐度过这个和下个礼拜， 之后就见不到朋友了。。 算了，明天应该会更好。。