I was so busy looking for novel conflicts for my BM homework that I even had to deal with my own in real life. It's so stressful when you get mad at someone, you tend to wonder, was it your fault or was it the other person's.. I often try to mend the situation first, but sometimes I feel like I'm trash to my friends, I feel like I'm always taken advantage of by them.. I love my friends very much, but they don't appreciate the things I do for them.. It always feels like I'm the one that always believes that their really good friends that will always be with me, but that's totally wrong.. I hate losing my temper at them so I just walk away before I say something I'd regret later. That often gets me in a very lonely situation, back to how I was long ago, dreadful.. But enough of the negative stuff, self optimism is good for me (haha, sounds familiar right, SH?), so being independent is a great thing. I don't need to be delayed because I'm waiting for my friend, I don't have lend my book to my friend to bring home to copy the work that obviously I did, and hand it in myself early the next day, not to mention having to sweat it out all the way to the teacher's room. I don't want to do all that anymore!! I'm sick and tired of it, I do it for you guys, but you don't seem to give help when I need it... Maybe I'm too sensitive, but I'm standing my ground, I do not want to be treated like garbage..
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Today's seminar was a waste of time, I didn't like the speaker much. She actually called someone a moron in public, I don't understand how she could say that... haiz.. That guy just made a stupid remark, and since I sat in the front row, I heard her saying that guy won't understand what she said... Disgusting...
Got a box of pencils for answering an extremely easy question during the talk on safety in school, the people that I knew were kinda shocked that I went out to give the answer. They said that they would never dare to do such a thing coz it's embarassing.. So, you need self confidence as well as be brave to do such a thing, haha...
Bringing it to a close for today, I'm gonna be keeping my cool this fine Saturday~
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Today's seminar was a waste of time, I didn't like the speaker much. She actually called someone a moron in public, I don't understand how she could say that... haiz.. That guy just made a stupid remark, and since I sat in the front row, I heard her saying that guy won't understand what she said... Disgusting...
Got a box of pencils for answering an extremely easy question during the talk on safety in school, the people that I knew were kinda shocked that I went out to give the answer. They said that they would never dare to do such a thing coz it's embarassing.. So, you need self confidence as well as be brave to do such a thing, haha...
Bringing it to a close for today, I'm gonna be keeping my cool this fine Saturday~
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