Chinese New Year's practically over. It's noisy every night, with firecrackers and fireworks 'bang'ing throughout the night.. Lost loads of sleep for the past week, and I'm now sick. Cough, cold, fever.. I rarely get sick and when I do I always get it bad.. = = I dread going to school now, facing classmates that seem like geniuses is very annoying. My buddy said if you don't have tuition help you can't possibly get good results... Nah, she's so annoying.. I'd rather have free time than have my time clogged up with all sorts of tuition nonsense.. No matter how lost and tired I get without tuition, I don't care.. Nothing much to say, wonder whether I'll recover soon........
Friday, February 11, 2011
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Little flashes of light..
Things have been sooo messy for the past two weeks. Seriously lagging behind other people in Math n Add Math.. Someone actually told me I can't catch up coz I don't go for tuition. I need like thrice the time to finish the math questions than others, the Chinese teacher piling copying work for me to throw myself upon, and work from my perkhidmatan stuff.. Missing being just an ordinary student with no strings attached. I think I did get a little over-emotional at times in school, but I always feel better once I let it out a little, sometimes crying even makes me feel a little lighter.. My parents tend to argue over petty matters these days, that really stresses me. My friend gets mad at me out of the blue coz I didn't answer her question immediately, omg, I just wanted to ask someone for the answer to her question and boom, an explosion, scary.. I can't let out anything that's bottled inside of me at home I guess, where else can I? School, lols..
Anyway, it's not that serious, I'm just over-emotional and a bit of a weakling I guess..XD Things are surely to get better, I really have to get rid of this unorganized, messy, everything-out-of-place kinda lifestyle. I'm happy with my life, seriously.. Loved bio class, when we used the microscope and the plant cells and animal cells, haha.. I really like this kinda experiments.. Like what someone told me, you can't be too kind, so ok, I cut down on my kindness and didn't help him draw the observation XD Today's chemistry was a flop I think, my group members said that our boiling tube exploded when Ben Sheng put it in the beaker, it was caused by a reaction to the sudden temperature change they said.. There's so much schoolwork to do during the CNY hols, wonder whether I'll have time to finish it... T,T Been playing maple with Brandon, he and Xiang Yun are like so hooked to that game that they actually discuss it in school = = I think I'm slowly becoming immune to rubbish on the floor, was a bit paranoic about bits of paper and dirt on the class floor coz I wasn't used to that type of 'surroundings' after year-end break.
Tomorrow's the jogathon, missed it last year I think, but not this year. Haiz.. another day of jogging till my feet go numb and feel like they're gonna drop off.. After that, I'm gonna balik kampung lo.... Gonna leave at about 3pm, and we're estimated to arrive at around 8, after the ERP or ECP or E whatever... Coming back on Sunday, then going back to Singapore on the 19th I think, so I'll miss replacement class. Hope I'll be able to catch up on that days lessons ^^ I'm really a slowpoke, grr...
~~ Happy Chinese New Year! =D ~~
Anyway, it's not that serious, I'm just over-emotional and a bit of a weakling I guess..XD Things are surely to get better, I really have to get rid of this unorganized, messy, everything-out-of-place kinda lifestyle. I'm happy with my life, seriously.. Loved bio class, when we used the microscope and the plant cells and animal cells, haha.. I really like this kinda experiments.. Like what someone told me, you can't be too kind, so ok, I cut down on my kindness and didn't help him draw the observation XD Today's chemistry was a flop I think, my group members said that our boiling tube exploded when Ben Sheng put it in the beaker, it was caused by a reaction to the sudden temperature change they said.. There's so much schoolwork to do during the CNY hols, wonder whether I'll have time to finish it... T,T Been playing maple with Brandon, he and Xiang Yun are like so hooked to that game that they actually discuss it in school = = I think I'm slowly becoming immune to rubbish on the floor, was a bit paranoic about bits of paper and dirt on the class floor coz I wasn't used to that type of 'surroundings' after year-end break.
Tomorrow's the jogathon, missed it last year I think, but not this year. Haiz.. another day of jogging till my feet go numb and feel like they're gonna drop off.. After that, I'm gonna balik kampung lo.... Gonna leave at about 3pm, and we're estimated to arrive at around 8, after the ERP or ECP or E whatever... Coming back on Sunday, then going back to Singapore on the 19th I think, so I'll miss replacement class. Hope I'll be able to catch up on that days lessons ^^ I'm really a slowpoke, grr...
~~ Happy Chinese New Year! =D ~~
Thursday, January 13, 2011
In darkness..
Form 4 life has started for like 2 weeks already. I'm still shrouded in pitch-black darkness, can't seem to keep track of what I'm doing, and wait.. sometimes I have no idea what I'm doing..
Form 3 was like rowing your paddles in a sampan to get to your destination. Form 4 is like.. hopping into a speedboat and not being able to even hold on to the controls.. Form 3 was like going round and round a merry-go-round, so simple, so stable. Form 4 is like going on a roller coaster, fast-paced. So unpredictable.
Everyday is like intense army training for the brain. So much information is being crammed into the organ in so little time. Before you understand what has just been fed to you, another huge spoonful comes along and forces you to swallow it. The lessons are mind-boggling aside from being nerve-wracking. It's terrible when you start seeing words appear then disappear as the duster goes past it. Everything comes and goes in an instant. Nothing seems to wait for you.
What I want is accompaniment. Be it with a friend or just someone I know. Someone to walk with to the school gate after the last bell rings to talk about the day and stuff. Dunno why, but that takes a huge load off me, makes me feel lighter. Happier. I like to smile and laugh a lot these days, even if there's no reason.. Yeah, sometimes hard things get impossible when you keep a straight, blank face. But being around someone who talks about nothing but studies and maybe a bit of other stuff is literally boring. Even in class, my friend has her own work to the for the time being and always leaves her place to talk to someone else about her work for PPS. That leaves me alone to stare into space, so I try to make myself busy by getting hold of anything to do, even reading the Malay novel that I never finish reading every year. We don't have a lot of stuff to talk about coz she says she's lazy to open her mouth to talk.. What!? And sometimes it's scary when she isn't in a good mood, it pressures me so much when she doesn't answer me or when I ask her what's wrong, it's like she starts telling me a bit then cuts it off by saying "No lah, I should be talking to someone else about this". It hurts me as a friend and I feel so uncomfortable. Sometimes she's ultra friendly and I just have to suit her mood. Be friendly to her when she's happy and stay away when she doesn't bother to reply. This hot and cold feeling is definitely what I hate the most. I don't even know why we got together in the first place. It was fine the first week but starting the next it was hot then cold, hot then cold. It's puzzling to think about what goes on in her head. That's just the negative part, don't get it the wrong way, I don't hate her, nor do I dislike her, I really like to be her friend actually. There's positive too.. She's great at schoolwork and she's really nice when she feels like it. That's all to say about the two weeks with her, obviously there are more negatives but I still really like her as a good friend. And there's another girl in class from 3D, she's really nice and helpful. She sits with me in all the Science classes and helps me out here and there. Our parents apparently know each other too. She goes for so many tuition classes O,O She's like lightyears ahead of me. She's still not that well versed with other classmates I guess. In Bio class, she finished what the teacher asked for immediately but she kept pushing me to present it for her, that probably was the first time I presented something that was totally not mine. She's nice anyways~ People that go for tuition during the holidays are a bit intimidating during lessons coz they seem like they know everything already.
Hoping to bring plants to class next week, and start working more efficiently. This happens whenever I start liking where I am, I go all out to make it feel more like a home to me. I hope my classmates won't disapprove of what I'm doing, I just like doing it, it's like home where my friends are everyday. When you can't change the situation you're in, try liking it, haha..
Form 3 was like rowing your paddles in a sampan to get to your destination. Form 4 is like.. hopping into a speedboat and not being able to even hold on to the controls.. Form 3 was like going round and round a merry-go-round, so simple, so stable. Form 4 is like going on a roller coaster, fast-paced. So unpredictable.
Everyday is like intense army training for the brain. So much information is being crammed into the organ in so little time. Before you understand what has just been fed to you, another huge spoonful comes along and forces you to swallow it. The lessons are mind-boggling aside from being nerve-wracking. It's terrible when you start seeing words appear then disappear as the duster goes past it. Everything comes and goes in an instant. Nothing seems to wait for you.
What I want is accompaniment. Be it with a friend or just someone I know. Someone to walk with to the school gate after the last bell rings to talk about the day and stuff. Dunno why, but that takes a huge load off me, makes me feel lighter. Happier. I like to smile and laugh a lot these days, even if there's no reason.. Yeah, sometimes hard things get impossible when you keep a straight, blank face. But being around someone who talks about nothing but studies and maybe a bit of other stuff is literally boring. Even in class, my friend has her own work to the for the time being and always leaves her place to talk to someone else about her work for PPS. That leaves me alone to stare into space, so I try to make myself busy by getting hold of anything to do, even reading the Malay novel that I never finish reading every year. We don't have a lot of stuff to talk about coz she says she's lazy to open her mouth to talk.. What!? And sometimes it's scary when she isn't in a good mood, it pressures me so much when she doesn't answer me or when I ask her what's wrong, it's like she starts telling me a bit then cuts it off by saying "No lah, I should be talking to someone else about this". It hurts me as a friend and I feel so uncomfortable. Sometimes she's ultra friendly and I just have to suit her mood. Be friendly to her when she's happy and stay away when she doesn't bother to reply. This hot and cold feeling is definitely what I hate the most. I don't even know why we got together in the first place. It was fine the first week but starting the next it was hot then cold, hot then cold. It's puzzling to think about what goes on in her head. That's just the negative part, don't get it the wrong way, I don't hate her, nor do I dislike her, I really like to be her friend actually. There's positive too.. She's great at schoolwork and she's really nice when she feels like it. That's all to say about the two weeks with her, obviously there are more negatives but I still really like her as a good friend. And there's another girl in class from 3D, she's really nice and helpful. She sits with me in all the Science classes and helps me out here and there. Our parents apparently know each other too. She goes for so many tuition classes O,O She's like lightyears ahead of me. She's still not that well versed with other classmates I guess. In Bio class, she finished what the teacher asked for immediately but she kept pushing me to present it for her, that probably was the first time I presented something that was totally not mine. She's nice anyways~ People that go for tuition during the holidays are a bit intimidating during lessons coz they seem like they know everything already.
Hoping to bring plants to class next week, and start working more efficiently. This happens whenever I start liking where I am, I go all out to make it feel more like a home to me. I hope my classmates won't disapprove of what I'm doing, I just like doing it, it's like home where my friends are everyday. When you can't change the situation you're in, try liking it, haha..
Saturday, January 1, 2011
New Year
The new school year is starting, again, I think this is the very first time I truly don't want to go to school, maybe coz I won't be able to play maple anymore, haha.. Some of my good friends aren't going to be in the same class with me, they told me we were but in the end it wasn't so it was quite disappointing to get your hopes up and finally get it crushed into smithereens..
I wonder how Form 4 learning is like, I really hope it'll not be hectic and difficult. I got this worry since so many people are taking tuition already, some even started days after the PMR.. My dad literally despises these kinda people, and I don't see the point to go for these 'early lessons'. It feels a bit like cheating coz you learn earlier than others, but does that really guarantee you better results?? No way, at least in my opinion..
I'm enjoying my holiday even though I'm always staying at home with a few outings to shopping centres like Midvalley, OneUtama and likes.. Anyway byebye 2010, hello 2011, I hope I won't write tomorrow's date as 3/1/2010, always can't get used to the year change in the first month, haha.. Happy New Year and may everyone be healthy and happy =D
I wonder how Form 4 learning is like, I really hope it'll not be hectic and difficult. I got this worry since so many people are taking tuition already, some even started days after the PMR.. My dad literally despises these kinda people, and I don't see the point to go for these 'early lessons'. It feels a bit like cheating coz you learn earlier than others, but does that really guarantee you better results?? No way, at least in my opinion..
I'm enjoying my holiday even though I'm always staying at home with a few outings to shopping centres like Midvalley, OneUtama and likes.. Anyway byebye 2010, hello 2011, I hope I won't write tomorrow's date as 3/1/2010, always can't get used to the year change in the first month, haha.. Happy New Year and may everyone be healthy and happy =D
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Christmas
The PMR results are out, most of my friends scored straight As, congrats to them! ^^ Feeling really happy for my friends. Was gonna have my celebratory dinner XD, then they ran out of my favourite fried chicken, haiz.. Had to opt for something else, I'm so relieved my father didn't walk off since they didn't have what we wanted to order, he usually does that, phew... It was an interesting evening... clearing the kitchen... The hose from the washing machine got detached and the whole kitchen was flooded... = = And there was a rat that ate a whole bag of chillies under the fridge, gross... Of course the rat wasn't there waiting to die, but all the dried chilly skins were.. I couldn't even imagine how much chillies the rat has been eating.. 10pm - mopping the kitchen floor a dozen times, using the water jet to get the chilly skins out of under the fridge, me in my pjs.. haiz.. It's Christmas Eve already, took 5 minutes to write this, haha..
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!! Happy holidays folks.. XD
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!! Happy holidays folks.. XD
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Digging into the holidays
Sharing the pc with my bro is just terrifying, especially when I want to play maple T.T... I do lots of housework when he plops himself in front of this thing called the monitor you're looking at, and doesn't move after that.. I practically have to get up when he's still asleep to play, sob.. The holidays have arrived and I have lots to focus on, my piano, gu zheng and probably taichi, haha.. Not to mention learning how to cook..
I go to my mum's shop almost everyday, learn the medicines and stuff, meet nice customers, unreasonable ones, neurotic ones, ones that cough and sneeze into your face, ones that seem like they wanna steal and some that bring 5 little children with squeeky shoes to run around the shop.. Sometimes it's really nerve wracking..
Looking forward to December when I can finally go out, of course with my family, when my aunt visits us.. I won't be cooped up at home for the whole holidays after all, phew.. My father just asked me what time I slept last night, he's been doing this since a long time ago, he already has a motto - the more you sleep, the taller you'll grow..
I don't think I'll be on my blog for a while, happy holidays~ = D
I go to my mum's shop almost everyday, learn the medicines and stuff, meet nice customers, unreasonable ones, neurotic ones, ones that cough and sneeze into your face, ones that seem like they wanna steal and some that bring 5 little children with squeeky shoes to run around the shop.. Sometimes it's really nerve wracking..
Looking forward to December when I can finally go out, of course with my family, when my aunt visits us.. I won't be cooped up at home for the whole holidays after all, phew.. My father just asked me what time I slept last night, he's been doing this since a long time ago, he already has a motto - the more you sleep, the taller you'll grow..
I don't think I'll be on my blog for a while, happy holidays~ = D
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Went to Petrosains and Aquaria, the trip was alright, I guess. Petrosains wasn't all that great, I still had the impression that sitting in the moving thing at the beginning and the end of the visit was just to conceal the fact that throughout the visit, the feel was just mediocre.. nothing special.. Aquaria was better, but I imagined it to have more stuff in it.. I sort of remembered that it was different from the way it was the last time I went there.
We went there after lunch, so as expected, nobody ever is punctual nowadays, we were like so late when we reached Aquaria.. My friends wanted to buy a bottle of water, we were at the food court, but they didn't want to buy water there. So I tagged along to Cold Storage since I didn't want to stray from them like I did in Petrosains. I couldn't believe they had to pick a bottle of water for like 15 minutes, so I kinda' ditched them and became an independent, again.. Followed the signs, and ran across the carpark, I didn't dare tell my parents about that, could feel the sub I had for lunch jump around in my stomach, and when I reached there, I found no one.. When we finally got in, I was first in line and the attendant actually asked me "Why do you look so sad, come, be happy, jump and say you're HAPPY!!" = =.. I squinted and looked him straight in the eye, and said " I'm not gonna jump. " End of story, he didn't dare bug me after that, haha... Actually, I become quite my old self when I'm not in a group, antisocial like anything... I feel much more at ease, though..
Back at school, I'm stuck with helping Pn Ku with her so-called analysis of PMR questions and Pn Chong with her never ending work she's giving out.. Not trying to be calculative or anything, but some teachers just are too much, they think since they're teachers they can ask us to do anything they like and most importantly, expect us to do it.. I really want to get my hands on the guy that gave me afternoon duty to distribute the school duty, he even jumbled up the words of my name around, I just hate it when people do that, they think they're so smart... = =
The coming week is going to be a nerve-wracking one, my bro's results are coming out.. haiz... He could play maple for hours and he didn't bother a bit about the exams, I mean I should be the one playing, not him... Oh well, it's my turn to play now~
We went there after lunch, so as expected, nobody ever is punctual nowadays, we were like so late when we reached Aquaria.. My friends wanted to buy a bottle of water, we were at the food court, but they didn't want to buy water there. So I tagged along to Cold Storage since I didn't want to stray from them like I did in Petrosains. I couldn't believe they had to pick a bottle of water for like 15 minutes, so I kinda' ditched them and became an independent, again.. Followed the signs, and ran across the carpark, I didn't dare tell my parents about that, could feel the sub I had for lunch jump around in my stomach, and when I reached there, I found no one.. When we finally got in, I was first in line and the attendant actually asked me "Why do you look so sad, come, be happy, jump and say you're HAPPY!!" = =.. I squinted and looked him straight in the eye, and said " I'm not gonna jump. " End of story, he didn't dare bug me after that, haha... Actually, I become quite my old self when I'm not in a group, antisocial like anything... I feel much more at ease, though..
Back at school, I'm stuck with helping Pn Ku with her so-called analysis of PMR questions and Pn Chong with her never ending work she's giving out.. Not trying to be calculative or anything, but some teachers just are too much, they think since they're teachers they can ask us to do anything they like and most importantly, expect us to do it.. I really want to get my hands on the guy that gave me afternoon duty to distribute the school duty, he even jumbled up the words of my name around, I just hate it when people do that, they think they're so smart... = =
The coming week is going to be a nerve-wracking one, my bro's results are coming out.. haiz... He could play maple for hours and he didn't bother a bit about the exams, I mean I should be the one playing, not him... Oh well, it's my turn to play now~
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