Results for the first test are out, most people are nuts about their results. They swarm around the teacher one by one, trying to squeeze marks out of the teacher, are they trying to make the teacher vomit out the marks or what..... If you don't get the stupid mark, then why bother, it's just the first test for God's sake. Making a table to compare marks with other 'competitors' is the most stupid thing they can come up with.. Paranoid. Anyway, I'm being way to calm about my results, they're mediocre I guess, not brilliant like Xin Rou and Chooi Mun. I mean, I'll never be up to par.. So why bother, haha..
Always listening to Korean songs lately, not that I can understand them, just like the melody. Listening to ballads by IU, nice.. Ok bah, lazy to continue, haha...
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Thursday, March 10, 2011
March test's over =D
This test is the first test for form 4. It's different, that's what I can only say.. haha.. No more objective questions for most of the subjects and even the history paper is in subjective form. I think this is probably the most ill-prepared test I have ever gone through. I did revision for almost all the subjects on the eve of the test, except History, I think I did that probably about a week ago..
The Accounting paper was okay, my accounts balanced at first, but after rewriting it with pen, it didn't... omg, and at the last minute... So I couldn't change it.. Handed it in and byebye.. That was one of the few subjects I didn't really struggle in.. Anyway I saw my results already. My paper didn't have my name on it = = I saw the results because Pn. Wee tracked down the owners of the nameless exam papers... There were 6 of us I think, I got a glimpse of my test paper.. Fine, it's not wonderful but it's great considering the lack of revision.. The English results came out today, it's good.. I was quite surprised that there was a comprehension where you needed to write your own answers.. Only those two are out, just days after the exam.. I don't think I'll fail any subject but you can't be too sure I guess, hehe..
While other people were revising, I was playing maple and leveling up.. haha.. So it ought to serve me right if I do fail.. My parents don't give me pressure at all, but it seems like other parents really care about what their children get in the first form 4 test, come on, as if it's life-changing, give them a break.. Like what my mom says, take this test as a gauge to see how much you know and where are your weak points. That's all there is to it in this monthly test thingamajiggy.. So no worries~
The Accounting paper was okay, my accounts balanced at first, but after rewriting it with pen, it didn't... omg, and at the last minute... So I couldn't change it.. Handed it in and byebye.. That was one of the few subjects I didn't really struggle in.. Anyway I saw my results already. My paper didn't have my name on it = = I saw the results because Pn. Wee tracked down the owners of the nameless exam papers... There were 6 of us I think, I got a glimpse of my test paper.. Fine, it's not wonderful but it's great considering the lack of revision.. The English results came out today, it's good.. I was quite surprised that there was a comprehension where you needed to write your own answers.. Only those two are out, just days after the exam.. I don't think I'll fail any subject but you can't be too sure I guess, hehe..
While other people were revising, I was playing maple and leveling up.. haha.. So it ought to serve me right if I do fail.. My parents don't give me pressure at all, but it seems like other parents really care about what their children get in the first form 4 test, come on, as if it's life-changing, give them a break.. Like what my mom says, take this test as a gauge to see how much you know and where are your weak points. That's all there is to it in this monthly test thingamajiggy.. So no worries~
Friday, February 25, 2011
Confusion - the stepping stone to clarity (I hope..)
Everything I learn seems confusing. I don't understand what they mean, how they come about. I feel like the sun's covered totally by dark clouds. Only little rays of light shines through. Clarity's blocked by confusion. It's tough. The exam's in two weeks. Chemistry, Accounting, History... They're the ones that I can't give up on, I want to try till I get it. Chemistry is by far the worst. Don't understand anything and can only stare and stare at my book while others are rushing about with their answers. Everything seems to be in standstill mode at times. Barely get to be on the computer, play my piano and practically sleep. Was really glad I got the oral test out of my way today, I knew I'd regret it the whole weekend if I hadn't volunteered. Going to take tonight off homework and just relax and play games. No study stuff gonna bother me, at least not tonight...
Friday, February 11, 2011
Post CNY
Chinese New Year's practically over. It's noisy every night, with firecrackers and fireworks 'bang'ing throughout the night.. Lost loads of sleep for the past week, and I'm now sick. Cough, cold, fever.. I rarely get sick and when I do I always get it bad.. = = I dread going to school now, facing classmates that seem like geniuses is very annoying. My buddy said if you don't have tuition help you can't possibly get good results... Nah, she's so annoying.. I'd rather have free time than have my time clogged up with all sorts of tuition nonsense.. No matter how lost and tired I get without tuition, I don't care.. Nothing much to say, wonder whether I'll recover soon........
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Little flashes of light..
Things have been sooo messy for the past two weeks. Seriously lagging behind other people in Math n Add Math.. Someone actually told me I can't catch up coz I don't go for tuition. I need like thrice the time to finish the math questions than others, the Chinese teacher piling copying work for me to throw myself upon, and work from my perkhidmatan stuff.. Missing being just an ordinary student with no strings attached. I think I did get a little over-emotional at times in school, but I always feel better once I let it out a little, sometimes crying even makes me feel a little lighter.. My parents tend to argue over petty matters these days, that really stresses me. My friend gets mad at me out of the blue coz I didn't answer her question immediately, omg, I just wanted to ask someone for the answer to her question and boom, an explosion, scary.. I can't let out anything that's bottled inside of me at home I guess, where else can I? School, lols..
Anyway, it's not that serious, I'm just over-emotional and a bit of a weakling I guess..XD Things are surely to get better, I really have to get rid of this unorganized, messy, everything-out-of-place kinda lifestyle. I'm happy with my life, seriously.. Loved bio class, when we used the microscope and the plant cells and animal cells, haha.. I really like this kinda experiments.. Like what someone told me, you can't be too kind, so ok, I cut down on my kindness and didn't help him draw the observation XD Today's chemistry was a flop I think, my group members said that our boiling tube exploded when Ben Sheng put it in the beaker, it was caused by a reaction to the sudden temperature change they said.. There's so much schoolwork to do during the CNY hols, wonder whether I'll have time to finish it... T,T Been playing maple with Brandon, he and Xiang Yun are like so hooked to that game that they actually discuss it in school = = I think I'm slowly becoming immune to rubbish on the floor, was a bit paranoic about bits of paper and dirt on the class floor coz I wasn't used to that type of 'surroundings' after year-end break.
Tomorrow's the jogathon, missed it last year I think, but not this year. Haiz.. another day of jogging till my feet go numb and feel like they're gonna drop off.. After that, I'm gonna balik kampung lo.... Gonna leave at about 3pm, and we're estimated to arrive at around 8, after the ERP or ECP or E whatever... Coming back on Sunday, then going back to Singapore on the 19th I think, so I'll miss replacement class. Hope I'll be able to catch up on that days lessons ^^ I'm really a slowpoke, grr...
~~ Happy Chinese New Year! =D ~~
Anyway, it's not that serious, I'm just over-emotional and a bit of a weakling I guess..XD Things are surely to get better, I really have to get rid of this unorganized, messy, everything-out-of-place kinda lifestyle. I'm happy with my life, seriously.. Loved bio class, when we used the microscope and the plant cells and animal cells, haha.. I really like this kinda experiments.. Like what someone told me, you can't be too kind, so ok, I cut down on my kindness and didn't help him draw the observation XD Today's chemistry was a flop I think, my group members said that our boiling tube exploded when Ben Sheng put it in the beaker, it was caused by a reaction to the sudden temperature change they said.. There's so much schoolwork to do during the CNY hols, wonder whether I'll have time to finish it... T,T Been playing maple with Brandon, he and Xiang Yun are like so hooked to that game that they actually discuss it in school = = I think I'm slowly becoming immune to rubbish on the floor, was a bit paranoic about bits of paper and dirt on the class floor coz I wasn't used to that type of 'surroundings' after year-end break.
Tomorrow's the jogathon, missed it last year I think, but not this year. Haiz.. another day of jogging till my feet go numb and feel like they're gonna drop off.. After that, I'm gonna balik kampung lo.... Gonna leave at about 3pm, and we're estimated to arrive at around 8, after the ERP or ECP or E whatever... Coming back on Sunday, then going back to Singapore on the 19th I think, so I'll miss replacement class. Hope I'll be able to catch up on that days lessons ^^ I'm really a slowpoke, grr...
~~ Happy Chinese New Year! =D ~~
Thursday, January 13, 2011
In darkness..
Form 4 life has started for like 2 weeks already. I'm still shrouded in pitch-black darkness, can't seem to keep track of what I'm doing, and wait.. sometimes I have no idea what I'm doing..
Form 3 was like rowing your paddles in a sampan to get to your destination. Form 4 is like.. hopping into a speedboat and not being able to even hold on to the controls.. Form 3 was like going round and round a merry-go-round, so simple, so stable. Form 4 is like going on a roller coaster, fast-paced. So unpredictable.
Everyday is like intense army training for the brain. So much information is being crammed into the organ in so little time. Before you understand what has just been fed to you, another huge spoonful comes along and forces you to swallow it. The lessons are mind-boggling aside from being nerve-wracking. It's terrible when you start seeing words appear then disappear as the duster goes past it. Everything comes and goes in an instant. Nothing seems to wait for you.
What I want is accompaniment. Be it with a friend or just someone I know. Someone to walk with to the school gate after the last bell rings to talk about the day and stuff. Dunno why, but that takes a huge load off me, makes me feel lighter. Happier. I like to smile and laugh a lot these days, even if there's no reason.. Yeah, sometimes hard things get impossible when you keep a straight, blank face. But being around someone who talks about nothing but studies and maybe a bit of other stuff is literally boring. Even in class, my friend has her own work to the for the time being and always leaves her place to talk to someone else about her work for PPS. That leaves me alone to stare into space, so I try to make myself busy by getting hold of anything to do, even reading the Malay novel that I never finish reading every year. We don't have a lot of stuff to talk about coz she says she's lazy to open her mouth to talk.. What!? And sometimes it's scary when she isn't in a good mood, it pressures me so much when she doesn't answer me or when I ask her what's wrong, it's like she starts telling me a bit then cuts it off by saying "No lah, I should be talking to someone else about this". It hurts me as a friend and I feel so uncomfortable. Sometimes she's ultra friendly and I just have to suit her mood. Be friendly to her when she's happy and stay away when she doesn't bother to reply. This hot and cold feeling is definitely what I hate the most. I don't even know why we got together in the first place. It was fine the first week but starting the next it was hot then cold, hot then cold. It's puzzling to think about what goes on in her head. That's just the negative part, don't get it the wrong way, I don't hate her, nor do I dislike her, I really like to be her friend actually. There's positive too.. She's great at schoolwork and she's really nice when she feels like it. That's all to say about the two weeks with her, obviously there are more negatives but I still really like her as a good friend. And there's another girl in class from 3D, she's really nice and helpful. She sits with me in all the Science classes and helps me out here and there. Our parents apparently know each other too. She goes for so many tuition classes O,O She's like lightyears ahead of me. She's still not that well versed with other classmates I guess. In Bio class, she finished what the teacher asked for immediately but she kept pushing me to present it for her, that probably was the first time I presented something that was totally not mine. She's nice anyways~ People that go for tuition during the holidays are a bit intimidating during lessons coz they seem like they know everything already.
Hoping to bring plants to class next week, and start working more efficiently. This happens whenever I start liking where I am, I go all out to make it feel more like a home to me. I hope my classmates won't disapprove of what I'm doing, I just like doing it, it's like home where my friends are everyday. When you can't change the situation you're in, try liking it, haha..
Form 3 was like rowing your paddles in a sampan to get to your destination. Form 4 is like.. hopping into a speedboat and not being able to even hold on to the controls.. Form 3 was like going round and round a merry-go-round, so simple, so stable. Form 4 is like going on a roller coaster, fast-paced. So unpredictable.
Everyday is like intense army training for the brain. So much information is being crammed into the organ in so little time. Before you understand what has just been fed to you, another huge spoonful comes along and forces you to swallow it. The lessons are mind-boggling aside from being nerve-wracking. It's terrible when you start seeing words appear then disappear as the duster goes past it. Everything comes and goes in an instant. Nothing seems to wait for you.
What I want is accompaniment. Be it with a friend or just someone I know. Someone to walk with to the school gate after the last bell rings to talk about the day and stuff. Dunno why, but that takes a huge load off me, makes me feel lighter. Happier. I like to smile and laugh a lot these days, even if there's no reason.. Yeah, sometimes hard things get impossible when you keep a straight, blank face. But being around someone who talks about nothing but studies and maybe a bit of other stuff is literally boring. Even in class, my friend has her own work to the for the time being and always leaves her place to talk to someone else about her work for PPS. That leaves me alone to stare into space, so I try to make myself busy by getting hold of anything to do, even reading the Malay novel that I never finish reading every year. We don't have a lot of stuff to talk about coz she says she's lazy to open her mouth to talk.. What!? And sometimes it's scary when she isn't in a good mood, it pressures me so much when she doesn't answer me or when I ask her what's wrong, it's like she starts telling me a bit then cuts it off by saying "No lah, I should be talking to someone else about this". It hurts me as a friend and I feel so uncomfortable. Sometimes she's ultra friendly and I just have to suit her mood. Be friendly to her when she's happy and stay away when she doesn't bother to reply. This hot and cold feeling is definitely what I hate the most. I don't even know why we got together in the first place. It was fine the first week but starting the next it was hot then cold, hot then cold. It's puzzling to think about what goes on in her head. That's just the negative part, don't get it the wrong way, I don't hate her, nor do I dislike her, I really like to be her friend actually. There's positive too.. She's great at schoolwork and she's really nice when she feels like it. That's all to say about the two weeks with her, obviously there are more negatives but I still really like her as a good friend. And there's another girl in class from 3D, she's really nice and helpful. She sits with me in all the Science classes and helps me out here and there. Our parents apparently know each other too. She goes for so many tuition classes O,O She's like lightyears ahead of me. She's still not that well versed with other classmates I guess. In Bio class, she finished what the teacher asked for immediately but she kept pushing me to present it for her, that probably was the first time I presented something that was totally not mine. She's nice anyways~ People that go for tuition during the holidays are a bit intimidating during lessons coz they seem like they know everything already.
Hoping to bring plants to class next week, and start working more efficiently. This happens whenever I start liking where I am, I go all out to make it feel more like a home to me. I hope my classmates won't disapprove of what I'm doing, I just like doing it, it's like home where my friends are everyday. When you can't change the situation you're in, try liking it, haha..
Saturday, January 1, 2011
New Year
The new school year is starting, again, I think this is the very first time I truly don't want to go to school, maybe coz I won't be able to play maple anymore, haha.. Some of my good friends aren't going to be in the same class with me, they told me we were but in the end it wasn't so it was quite disappointing to get your hopes up and finally get it crushed into smithereens..
I wonder how Form 4 learning is like, I really hope it'll not be hectic and difficult. I got this worry since so many people are taking tuition already, some even started days after the PMR.. My dad literally despises these kinda people, and I don't see the point to go for these 'early lessons'. It feels a bit like cheating coz you learn earlier than others, but does that really guarantee you better results?? No way, at least in my opinion..
I'm enjoying my holiday even though I'm always staying at home with a few outings to shopping centres like Midvalley, OneUtama and likes.. Anyway byebye 2010, hello 2011, I hope I won't write tomorrow's date as 3/1/2010, always can't get used to the year change in the first month, haha.. Happy New Year and may everyone be healthy and happy =D
I wonder how Form 4 learning is like, I really hope it'll not be hectic and difficult. I got this worry since so many people are taking tuition already, some even started days after the PMR.. My dad literally despises these kinda people, and I don't see the point to go for these 'early lessons'. It feels a bit like cheating coz you learn earlier than others, but does that really guarantee you better results?? No way, at least in my opinion..
I'm enjoying my holiday even though I'm always staying at home with a few outings to shopping centres like Midvalley, OneUtama and likes.. Anyway byebye 2010, hello 2011, I hope I won't write tomorrow's date as 3/1/2010, always can't get used to the year change in the first month, haha.. Happy New Year and may everyone be healthy and happy =D
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